Chemo recovery

I am pretty best up with this chemo. There is a part of me wondering if it makes more sense to be in the hospital and get 4 done at a time instead of having 4 terrible weekends. On the one hand, I sleep when I am at home. On the other hand, I had IV fluids in the hospital.

I cannot really discuss the nausea right now, except to say that it is ever present. I am pretty sure that I am dehydrated. Last night, I threw up ginger ale and iced tea. I have kept down apple, melon, a handful of crackers, and half a smoothie. When I had the 4-chemo-in-a-row, I did not eat from Thursday until Sunday,and then I ate very minimally. I am eating way more, but I have been sicker.

Cancer is so awful and this chemo is exhausting. I miss being awake for most of the day. I miss walking. I have used a commode on the side of my bed because I did not have the energy to get myself to the bathroom. I feel bad for the people who have emptied it for me. Yesterday, I made an extra effort to use the bathroom ( which really involves using a walker inside of the bathroom).

I can't wait until I feel a little better. A visiting nurse is coming today. I hope she has some ideas that help.

Post chemo

I had chemo yesterday. That wasn't the plan. I was just going for a check up. Then Dr. Rubin asked if I wanted to have 4 chemo treatments in the hospital in a row with a 3 week break or one a week. After weighing it out, 1 a week seemed better as being in the hospital is awful and means that I won't rest, despite extreme exhaustion .
So we began treatment yesterday. Luckily, my mother and baby sister were visiting me. They helped me so much! When we got back to my apartment, I did not think I could go up the steps, but I managed to do so, with several rests. Ken helped me up the stairs and Athena got my prescriptions.

Last night I felt ok. Today I feel so awful. There are drugs for pain and drugs for nausea, thank god. I wish there was a drug for anti-crappy-chemo-hangover. That'd be awesome. I haven't been out of bed yet and it is nearly 7pm.

My sister picked up my mail and read me some beautiful letters. Eric and Erin sent me some books of short stories. I had Athena read them to me. Bunky has hardly left my side, sometimes to my annoyance.


Oh, and very exciting news: my big sister had a son today, making me Aunty again. Congratulations! To her and her husband.