pink ribbons and all

I have to admit, sometimes I hate seeing pink ribbons. I see them everywhere. I see them on people's clothing. On water bottles at coffee shops. On buses. On billboards. I think I haven't gone a whole day without seeing pink ribbons.

At first, I liked seeing them. I felt like people were rooting for me, as though I were a sports team. Now, I see them and I'm reminded again that I have breast cancer, in case I forgot. I do forget, all the time. Breast cancer has been really tricky to wrap my brain around. I don't feel sick, except for the medications and treatment that I'm getting. I don't feel like I have cancer. I don't feel like I have a potentially life threatening disease at all. Sometimes, I just want to have a beer with friends or go home from work or something without having a thought my breasts or my treatment or, especially, Lumpy. Actually, usually.

Also, sometimes, I think- Wow! all that money spent on all those {posters|t-shirts|sneakers|water bottles|pens etc} could be used to help folks with breast cancer...

Sometimes, though, I feel like people are on my team.